To give you a preview, here’s a brief unedited excerpt. It starts with Walter’s point of view, then we get to see a bit of Kevin’s.
Walter brushed the back of his index finger over Kevin’s lips. He’d always loved kissing. Even in his youth, when most of the guys wanted nothing more than the fucking or the sucking, he’d loved the kissing and touching and exploring. Kevin liked it too. He was sure of that. He’d felt it in the first kiss. And the second.
“I know what you want. And so do you.” Walter gave up on the touching and offered Kevin a little distance. “You’ve never been with a man, have you?”
“Yes. No. Yes.” Kevin blew the hair out of his eyes. “Yes, I have.”
“What? You get stroked off by another boy in junior high school?”
“No.”
“You did more than a teenage experiment?”
“Yes. Sort of.”
Walter moved in close once more. “I’m guessing it’s been a very long time, and you’ve been denying yourself what you really wanted most of your life—what you still want.”
It took a moment, as if he had to force his body to comply, and then Kevin nodded.
“You’re not out?” Walter asked. Without giving it much thought, the tone of his voice had shifted to something softer.
“No.”
“Do you have a wife?”
“No. I wouldn’t…” Kevin gestured with his hand between them.
“A girlfriend?”
“Yes. I mean, no.”
“Which is it? If you can’t remember if you have a girlfriend, then trust me, you don’t have one anymore.”
“I don’t. Have one anymore, I mean.” Kevin sucked in a deep breath. “Talking to you is exhausting.”
“Talking to you is entertaining.”
Kevin rolled his eyes. He sobered. Staring at Walter’s shoes, he said, “I left her. My girlfriend, Sondra. A couple of months ago.”
“I’m sorry it didn’t work out.”
“We’re still friends.” Kevin lifted his head. “We’ve been friends for a long time.”
“Which is why you stayed with her for so long.” Walter took another step closer. “And now?”
Kevin evaded his gaze again.
The silence stretched on between them. Walter wasn’t about to back down. He had years of experience pushing people for the truth.
Something told him with Kevin, there was a fine line between not pushing enough and pushing too hard.
KEVIN DID NOT want to talk about this. Yet a part of him longed to do just that.
Here, in this room, with a gay man listening to him, he couldn’t pretend any longer. He wanted to kiss Walter again, let his tongue wander over those lips, down along the skin of his neck to the warm flesh under his clothes, his chest, and lower to his abs, and even lower. He wanted to taste it all. He couldn’t hide from that fact. Not any longer.
He’d known for months now that he’d been heading to this moment. Whether he’d wanted to admit it or not.”
It had been easy to keep the promise he’d made in his youth. At least while he’d been with Sondra. He wasn’t a cheater. Now that she was gone, now that he was here, now that he’d felt this man’s touch…he was done holding back.
Walter cupped his chin and forced him to look up.
“I guess I can’t hide from it forever.”
“That’s good. You don’t have to hide. Not here. Not in this room. Not with me.”
After I wrap up working on the edits with my editor, I’ll share more snippets and there may even be a contest or two leading up to the release so stay tuned.
Meanwhile, I’ve got several other projects underway that are keeping me busy–so busy I’ve been hit or miss with blogging lately (in fact, I haven’t been online much at all), but I’m really digging the short piece I’m writing so that feels great. Here’s what I’m working on:
More news to come on all those.
Thanks for checking out the excerpt. I’m off to celebrate with my honey for signing my fourth book contract. Have a good one!
